Mind, Matter, and Me

I’ve been thinking about the influence and power music has on me.  And I don’t think I could live a fulfilling life without it, now that I know a colorful life with it. 

There was one day this summer where me and my sidekick Carrie had a discussion about this.

With all of our traveling and endless time together, we started playing the question game. This game is my favorite. I play it with the girls I nanny and it is my favorite way to get to know needless but telling things about a person and who they are. The game is more or less just endless “would you rather” or “if you could…” or “lets say…” type questions. 

Anywho, Carrie and I are on the most beautiful and incredible hike of my entire life, hiking the coastal edge of Spain in Xábia, and we are playing the question game when I ask her, “what is one thing you could not live with out”. 

For the life of me I am unable to remember her answer but my answer was Music. My definitive answer was surprising to Carrie and as it is in Carries nature, she asked me to further explain (because she lives to understand and learn) (this is a reason to be her friend. she really makes you think and helps you get excited about learning and about all things)

Music was the only answer that really made sense to me. Music introduces me to experiences and feelings I previously had never understood. I feel as if I can live a million lives and be different versions of my self with music.

At that time I was in love with a song called “Please Stop Calling” by Juniper and Jesse Buckley. As an example, I told Carrie that this song is what I pictured breaking up with someone who you deeply loved and respected was like. It is a song that makes you feel like you are slow dancing with your partner as you both say goodbye. It makes me feel like i am letting go of what once was a working relationship but is no longer healthy or suiting, and you both know it. It paints a picture for me. It gives me an experience I’ve never had. It allows me to see the difficulty and feel the heartbreak.

This is why I could never give up music.

I am thinking about how music influences and sometimes dictates my mood and how I need that sometimes. It aids me in feeling the extremes of my emotions. It can also help me get out of a funk or help put me into a sad girl moment. Music is a memory keeper.

My yonger brother and I discussed this today. (Hi Buddy! He wont see this cause he recently told me, to my face, that he doesn’t read my blog<3) We shared songs tied to memories and songs that effect us. For Buddy, one song makes his mouth start to taste like pizza because that’s what he was doing when he heard it. I mentioned how if I ever start crying, he should start playing “U taste like Sundays” by Laszewo and I would drop my tears off at school and start busting a move. We both said “Everybody Talks” by Neon Trees reminded us of a trip with took to Marco Island. I said the whole Noah Kahan Stick Season Album reminds me of the hardest period of my life (but don’t get it twisted, it is still my favorite album ever). “Close to You” by Dayglow reminds me of my Europe with Carrie. “Leave My Mind” by Ben Platt makes me giddy, frustrated, and nostalgic (seemingly impossible combination but its true). “Pretty Life” by Terell Morris reminds me of my brother and painting his house with my family. “sometimes” by Chelsea Cutler always makes me cry.

There are so many incredible artists and performers out there who make my days memorable, who make me feel something, and who make me feel grateful for this life I live.

What music has done for me, is something I cant ever put in coherent sentences that express what I want it to. But I hope this helped shed light on why I would never ever in a million years give up music.

Can you guys please send me songs that you love or that make you feel things. I want to listen!!!! Please!!!!

One last song suggestion, “shut up” by Grayson Chance. Makes me feel like I am the main character living in a romance novel (my happy place. idc what you have to say about that).

Your music enthusiast,

Me

“Darlin’, speak to me but don’t you say a word
Light a cigarette, I’ll watch it as it burns
Remember tellin’ me that you thought you were cursed?
I’m in love with every song you’ve ever heard” – Strawberry Wine, Noah Kahan